Yesterday was the end of another year at UTK. I had some papers due yesterday at 5pm and when I turned those in, it really was like a huge weight lifted from my shoulders. All the sweat and tears and effort that I put into one year is finally being swept away. Like, from here on, I can breathe a bit easier.
It’s all over now.
Now, I’m not gonna lie, I didn’t expect much for the spring semester. I mean, by the end of the fall, I was so unhappy with myself and everything around me that I almost gave up on trying. I think I just wanted to distance myself from important things so I wouldn’t be disappointed.
I guess that’s depression for you. You get stooped so low that you don’t think you can do better. But maybe God had bigger plans for me than I had for myself. Spring semester turned out to be even better than Fall semester. I worked harder, I made some great new friends, got closer to some old ones, I sang, I danced, I played music, and grew up a little more. Yes, I was hurt for a little while, but maybe it was worth it. I don’t think I would be able to really appreciate the wonderful people in my life and my family (and those who have become my family) if not for all the crap that happened.
What hurts you makes you stronger, and what makes you stronger makes you whole.
I am so very sad that many of my friends are leaving Knoxville for the summer (while I have to stay here), but I know they will be back in the fall and we will be as close as everrrrrrr.
This summer, which doesn’t even feel quite like summer yet, will definitely be interesting and full of opportunities.